I made JCole’s Chicken Nachos

  I’m from Durham, NC. I’m a huge J Cole fan. I actually had the opportunity to meet him on New Years of 2017. I was a cook at Chammps at South Pointe Mall (now closed down). I made his chicken nachos for New Years Eve 2017. I was unaware he was in the building till a server had notified me. Of course I was in disbelief,  out of all places ,on New Years he was at my job. I hauled tail around the corner so fast , in such excitement ,his security guards lifted up out their seat a little . I just froze and then thought of the situation. If he’s here at Chammps on New Years with his wife, he’s not trying to be seen. In truly respecting him as an artist and person I didn’t introduce myself.  I thought to myself “this is your moment” then ” Nope keep putting in work and the right opportunity will present itself in time”.
  I feel the most craziest thing of it all, was on my way to work that day, I prayed. Financially my skills with Facebook algorithms weren’t being met; I also felt like did Yah want me to only put energy and focus on my family instead . I am very passionate about Hip Hop I feel it in my soul and meditate on it daily.  I’m also a felon so most Firm jobs are a no go for me so my focus has to be Hip Hop. I’ll be able to pass a background check in a year and a half ; I completely changed my life around after a 17 month bid in Raleigh’s Women Correctional Institute for Selling drugs. A huge part of that was with the song Crooked Smile’s  encouragement but I’ll get to that later. So I prayed to Yahweh and asked him for a sign which path he wanted me to go down. That night at 11:30 pm  J Cole And his Wife walk through the door, out of all the people in Hip Hop, it was COLE. The meaning and symbology  of that in itself was so deep to me.
          In 2012, I had got caught up in the street life. I got charged and found guilty of Selling a Schedule 2 narcotic. I went to the NC DOC in Raleigh at 4 months pregnant. I have been a part of the growing recidivism rate since the age of 17 before this point, to me it was almost like a right of passage , glorified where I’m from. I thought at the time it was something that I could handle , mixing and mingling with everyone to make the time pass faster until I’m in there having to worry about my child’s safety as well. That’s a whole different ballpark. As I was in there I kept to myself, observing, preparing myself mentally to give birth incarcerated. Thank God in DOC you get a radio and headphones, because I probably wouldn’t be who I am today without it. That was my escape out of the prison.
    When the day came August 3,2013, I wasn’t as mentally prepared as I thought. The prison didn’t get me to the hospital until 20 mins before she came out, I was cuffed to a bed, no family or friends were allowed to be there for security reasons, so all I had was nothing but two armed guards for support . I gave birth then only got to spend 48 hours with her before I had to be back on grounds. I decided in that moment I was never exposing myself or my children to that way of life again, that me and them deserved better , so I named her Genesis ( for those who don’t know , Genesis means the beginning). She was the beginning to my new way of life.
  The moment they told me it was time to go she felt the energy and it made me feel helpless and lost on top of my sadness,pain,and anger. Got back to campus put my headphones on as I was in deep sobs, and the first song to come on was Crooked Smile. It was the first time I heard it so it had to have been when J Cole released it to this market. I was very distraught,  but that song uplifted me so much. Help get me back in the right mindset, every word of that song was applied in my way of thinking from that moment on. Not only did it uplift me, but near about the whole compound of NCCIW. You could tell when someone was listening to it, because they would stop walking and do a little side step and snap to the song.
   I got out and stayed true to my thoughts ,soul, and word. I completely cut off all the old people I was hanging around , stayed at home with my kids 24-7, and Facebook.  Being in there gave me the start of knowledge of networking, so I applied it when I got out, started studying Facebook and how it’s ran. Now I’ve assisted with running pages that total followers is over 3 million , has reached over 500 million people in a week.  I’m working on new projects with K 97.5’s Mir I Am ‘s Carolina Waves , my own OurProphecy page, and am proudly able to say I am now an official Dreamville Festival 2018 ambassador, selling tickets for the first EVER HIP HOP WOODSTOCK of festivals (without the drugs of course lol) The Dreamville Festival. Most the proceeds from this event will be going to JCole’s Non Profit The Dreamville Foundation .
  It’s crazy how life works in grand circles, you have to stop and pay attention to what the universe is trying to tell you. Get in control of your thoughts and manifest them. Still not where I want to be financially  but I am getting there by meditating and visualizing my future in the process and keeping my Kharma slate clean. So whatever the future holds for me this is a step up towards that.
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P B and Jams #HashtagLunchbag

Things change, People change, and so did I

What a wonderful event for a wonderful cause, held at CoCoa Cinnamon in Durham, NC.  Nakoma PR , CoCoa Cinnamon, and Carolina Waves partnered up to present PB and Jams a #hashtaglunchbag event. Making P B and J’s for the homeless at Urban Ministries.

For those who don’t know, #hashtaglunchbag is a humanity service movement dedicated to empowering and inspiring humanity to reap the benefits of giving through the use of social media. Creating  and using bagged lunches, complete with love messages, as a vessel to spread this love and share our experiences to inspire others.

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Photo Credit: Mir.I.Am

J Cole’s Dreamville Records donated 2 pairs of tickets to their Dreamville Fest in Raleigh, NC on September 15th for participants in the event. People who donated and people who volunteered.

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It was such a loving and peaceful environment, patrons of the restaurant ordered their food and coffee and sat down to make a few sandwiches joining in on the event. All together the donations raised : three large plastic bins of sandwiches, five large packs of bottled water, 4 bulk boxes of chips, fruit, canned goods, wash cloths, hygiene items and more.

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Durham’s Urban Ministries provide temporary relief to homeless people seeking shelter.  If you have ever visited the place they serve 3 meals a day. You have to be out of the facility by 7 AM. So a lot of these people that are using these services are waiting in the elements for line up to either sign up for a bunk or wait for a meal. So even the smallest gesture like what was done here can make someone’s day go a little brighter and a little better.

Life is all about planting seeds and giving back when you got it. Even if a person doesn’t get what you’re saying or what you’re doing at the moment, it does not mean you didn’t plant a seed inside that persons mind that can grow over time.  Every person who has changed their mindset or achieved great things , all started with a seed that someone had planted in their minds.

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Me and Mir.I.Am

 

This event is supposed to be reoccurring. Chelsey Holts owner of Nakoma PR said hopefully there will be another one in September. If you were unable to come out to this one, make sure you come out to the next one.

Chelsey Holts and Mir.I.Am discuss PB and Jams #HashtagLunchbag Event

Confessions of an Old Hip Hop Head and Mom : XXXTentacion and Tekashi 6ix 9ine

Things change, People Change, and so I did.

As an old hip hop head, reformed felon, empath, and mom there were certain elements of the newer generation of hip hop I didn’t care for.  The death of XXX Tentacion really opened my eyes and got my mind going in so many directions. For example every generation of music (not just Hip Hop), the older generation would down it, saying its not real music . All the way back to Elvis when rock and roll was first developed. My parents said it to me, took CDs away from me , and I have said it to my son when we would we speak of Hip Hop.  XXX Tentacion is my sons favorite artist, to be honest I didn’t like the head lines I seen on him, but after my son was very adamant about him changing and spreading positivity with the Helping Hands Challenge  and making music for kids with depression, I decided to follow him. I too was on a wrong path before and have went through a change process myself, so I respected that. A few days later he was shot and killed.  My son was very distraught and wanted to be left alone, so I digged into researching X fully so I could help my son find peace and my soul hurt immediately  for judging this man.   You can read my last blog  where I fully discussed this in detail. It ultimately inspired me, and I hope to be a part of the change process of getting people to not judge a book by its cover and instead of judging actually try to help people. I actually now have a lot of admiration for the new era of hip hop ; in the fact of how they are transmuting the negative energy into positive by using the hate to build. Now I just hope more artist take onto what XXX Tentacion was trying to preach before his life got cut short.

So I started following more new hip hop artist. Tekashi 6ix9ine  being one of them. I honestly feel he gets the most hate out of all the new artist. I admire how he has used the hate to build a very impressive platform. He is selling out world tours that he just finished up and even has a new app that covers his events live called XStream Pass. He recently debuted his latest single FEFE   featuring Nicki Minaj . The video is very vibrant, eye catching in color,provocative, and artistic. The day before the single release Tekashi was kidnapped,robbed, and pistol whipped. The single was still released on July 21st , despite the life changing experience, and within 24 hours received 13,000,000 views on YouTube.

Before X’s passing he had started giving back to the community.

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Now paying tribute to X at every one of his shows

 

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After his near death experience he feels it was X’s spirit who was with him and saved him on early Sunday morning.

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Now after the success of the release of FEFE,  he has decided to donate a percentage of FEFE profits to Youth Programs. With hopes of making a better tomorrow .

Really carrying on the true message that XXX Tentacion was trying to spread through his Helping Hands Challenge  .  XXX Tentacion Foundation  just awarded Gun Violence victim Devin Anderson, who was gunned down at the age of 22, and  for the past year has been restricted to just his house due to his injuries. The XXX Tentacion Foundation with help of all his supporters were able to purchase him a new fully equipped mini van in honor of Jahseh aka XXXTentacion.

 

Jahsey’s ultimate message through his last music video SAD, which dropped a week after his death, was for change, love , compassion, and compromise of the world. He fought his old self in a battle to the death, first in physical form then won by defeating the old him with his mind.  A very powerful and thought provoking illustration that I hope people watching caught and grasped the full meaning of it. Us as a society in general need to understand how powerful our minds are and how what you think is your reality. Keep thinking negative and more negative will appear in your life. Loving one another, showing compassion, and compromising is the only way for a better future. Never be too closed minded on any issue. As the great Socrates said “True knowledge,is knowing you know nothing at all.”

With all this said I fully applaud and appreciate Tekashi 6ix9ine, and hope he keeps the movement going spreading positivity and giving back to the community. I honestly hope to see a deeper side in his music as well.

So I will leave you with this, us old hip hop heads and people as a whole need to understand change is inevitable. The next generation will always be ten fold what the former generation was. You don’t have to love it  just embrace it.  Downing and insulting the next generation will only create a wall between you and them. How can you get your message or wisdom across that way?  Leave your comments below!!

Featured Photo Credit: MixRUs

Confessions from a Old Hip Hop Head and Mom

People change, Things change, and so I did

By: Michelle Coleman

 

I am a 32 year old ,what they call ,an Old Hip Hop head. I love the hip hop culture and have lived it since kindergarten .  As someone who has paid the ultimate price for  living the life style often associated and glorified with hip hop culture ; I had come to the place of being closed minded on today’s hip hop. Especially with my thirteen year old son. On the strength I don’t want my child making the same mistakes I did growing up. Rather we like to admit it art imitates life and life imitates art, it’s a never ending cycle.

I have never raised a teenager before, I can only be empathetic to my children based on how I grew up. To be real I have been finding more of a disconnect between me and my son as he is hitting puberty. When I would try to connect we would talk about hip hop or things going on in school. Other than that he stays in his room playing video games and listening to music. When we discussed hip hop in the past he would engage by talking about his favorite artist at the time. Lil Yachty, Lil Pump, and  XXXTentacion. Me being an old hip hop head, I would tell him try to find artist with substance and depth in their music. Your generation’s hip hop is not “real” hip hop.  Six months ago we had the same discussion this time he told me he doesn’t like Lil Pump any more because he doesn’t rap about anything other than Gucci Gang. I was impressed thinking to myself I broke through to him. Then  I asked ” Who is your favorite artist now?” his response XXXTentacion. I gave him a confused look, he said  “Mom, he’s trying to change. He makes music now for kids struggling with depression”.  Due to my old lifestyle choices, having him young , he had to pay for my lifestyle choices when I had to do two years in prison, which attributed to his own depression.  So I deeply respected that, but then when I started googling him wasn’t too impressed with the headlines. A month ago we reach this topic again, and he’s telling me all about his Helping Hand Challenge and again reiterating his change and music helping kids with depression issues . I thought to myself, ok I need to start following him so I can have a open dialogue with my child and because I myself have went through change over the past 6 years.  2 weeks ago I started following him on Facebook, Twitter, Youtube, and Instagram. Four days later he was shot in a robbery in Florida at a motorcycle dealership.

My son came rushing out his bedroom in disbelief screaming “Mom!! They shot him”, I replied “Who?” he said “X, they shot X”. I said “Calm down, make sure their not trolling for views, make sure it’s real”. Then I hopped on my social media, as I follow hip hop closely. Worldstar Hip Hop had posted the video of Xxxtentacion taking his last few breaths of life for everyone to see. My heart dropped thinking about his family, friends, and followers how they had to witness this. Thinking about how out of all the things someone could be doing to help him in those moments, how they decided to just pull out the phone and record. Not even 30 minutes later the post came from the Broward County Sheriff’s Office department stating he was in fact dead. I immediately ran to my son and hugged him. I didn’t know what to say, so I just hugged him in silence. He said he just wanted to be alone, I couldn’t do nothing but honor his decision and tell him “If you want to talk, I’m here”.

I went to my computer and followed XXXTentacion on Spotify and started listening to his music.  It was deep, thought provoking,  ground breaking, and crossing genres something no other hip hop artist has done successfully.  Guilt immediately filled my soul for judging this man off headlines. I watched the video on Worldstar Hip Hop one more time and begun to cry.  Then going through my Facebook and Twitter feed seeing all these people make post and comment saying how he deserved to die because of his pending court case . It immediately sent a wave of emotion over me and my thoughts came rushing in.

If you follow me on Facebook, you should know by now, I’m an empath ;  my thoughts are often outside the box, rapid, and at times they can consume me.  So with that said, my thoughts went to my own personal growth and change, what would have been said about me if I died before I started my process of change? The evolution of the music industry beginning with Elvis, to Michael Jackson, to Tupac, now Xxxtentacion , and how the older generation before each of these amazing and talented artist disliked them and was saying the same exact thing about the next generation’s music. The same thing I was barking at my son.  I felt bad and immediately went to posting my thoughts. 6627165156933632

 

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The responses were eye opening. So many people lack the ability to be empathetic  and show compassion for someone, that is what is wrong with the world today. Most of the negative comments were from people who don’t even listen to hip hop in the first place, people who go by headlines instead of digging deeper and researching, judgmental people, or very closed minded Old Hip Hop heads. I used to refer to myself as one , I used to be one.  After this past week and a half, I will no longer refer to myself as an Old Hip Hop head.  I do not want any of the new generation associating me with the ignorance a lot of grown people have shown this week. The same mentality most of the hip hop culture despises and protests against, was the same mentality that was given in the majority of these comments and posts( Total comments on  combined post 730) .

Tuesday approaches ,Worldstar Hip Hop makes the announcement that XXXtentacion’s video of SAD will be uploaded to YouTube on Wednesday morning @9am. I recieved the notification from YouTube the video was uploaded . Anticipation ran through my bones as I clicked on the notification.  XXXtentacion SAD video<<Click Here

 

 

 

Me and my son watched it together, within ten seconds of pressing play my eyes started to water. Everything I had been posting about and felt were in this video. It was very emotional,thought provoking, prophetic ,and foreshadowing . It captured his whole essence ,aura of freethinking , and creativity.  In the video he is attending a funeral of the old him, which quickly escalates to a physical battle when his old self emerges from the coffin. The new him beating the old him with the power of his mind. In between the battle he is talking with his inner spirit he names Gekyume, which means next universe of thought. I’m going to write out the dialogue, because I feel in my heart that is the message his soul came to spread before it was taken and to reiterate the original message he wanted to share before his death.

” Why are you watching this video? Why do you Love ?, Why do you hate?, What is your Blood Type, What is your place of birth and age?”

” Here is your warning and soul’s demand by perceiving this video. If you are watching you are subjected to a segment piece of my creative aura and wishes. You are now in “my”  world or a piece of my consciousness as one would say.”

” You will spread love throughout the world, change the overall cycle of energy we are digesting. The world is in need of change, humans must learn to love and compromise rather than destroy. Blessing’s be upon those who have come to the visual presentation with good energy rather than malice, and those with negative intent, thank you. Your energy has been transmuted in the amount of time that you have taken to give your energy.”

” The world will soon be more loving, you will see. They do not understand you. Do you not fear? Your worst enemy is yourself and you seem unbothered. Though you can not pretend you have walked through life unscathed,it is your memories that hold you to the person you were. To amount the light you can become, you must understand the power of your mind.”

   These words are very powerful and should get everyone to think differently about life in general.

          I can say if he hasn’t gotten anyone else to change their way of thinking, he has mine.  Even though I have changed my life around over the past 6 years, my fear of my children making the same mistakes I have ,had me closed minded on some issues. I will no longer do that. Me and my son are now engaging in more conversations then ever and developing a stronger relationship because of this eye opening experience. For now on my post will be more thought provoking in effort to help open people’s eyes and minds, while growing more spiritually myself . Opening a dialogue to help expand each other’s point of view , you cant grow without dialogue and healthy debate.   Do I think I can change the world, no. Negativity will always be here unfortunately, but I will play my part in helping with the growth of change and compromise . Even if it’s just one person who I can get to thinking differently on an issue. The world and Hip Hop needs it now more than ever. Regardless if you’re not feeling an artist music, you shouldn’t shut it down with negativity but with constructive criticism if you truly love hip hop and want to have an everlasting impact on it. It is growing and changing regardless of preference, being ignorant of that change won’t fix the problems you see in it. Guess that can be said dealing with world issues as well.

Gone but not forgotten,

RIP

Jahseh Onfroy aka XXXTentacion

Photo credit:  cleo_ohsojazzy instagram account (X's Mother)
XXXTentacion’s Tomb

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Even after his death, he is still being charitable. Urging people to donate to the XXXTentacion Foundation. The proceeds will be given to different charities.